Mimi: THIS is the truth...

Ok, I'd like to share with you a conversation I had with Ginger this morning. It's crunch time and I have about a month to finish my dissertation. I keep offering exercise options to Ginger and she is supportive enough to try to work with me. But then I keep cancelling these plans, once made. I then feel guilty for cancelling, sending me into angst. Too much drama around weight, let me tell you. So this morning I had the following to say to Ginger. It went something like this:

"THIS is the truth. Ginger, no matter what I say in the future, I want you to know that right now, what I tell you trumps anything else I might say in the future: Don't believe anything I say about meeting you at the gym."

So what was I thinking? I can't NOT try to plan and do something about eating and exercise. But I can't seem to follow-through. But I don't feel like suffering the guilt of the flaky. This was my solution.

Can you believe that Ginger wouldn't support me on this??!! Me, in my time of need!! All I'm sayin' is that I need the allusion of effort in my life right now. Come May 15th when my draft is turned in, THEN I can really focus. Until then, can't I at least have the lie??!!