Thursday, July 10, 2008

Jill's Update

I know you haven't heard from me in like a million years but now I feel like I'm understanding what's going on. I haven't been motivated to excercise like I was last year or even been excited about starting to get motivated. I think part of my issue was/is slight depression, comfort and laziness. The depression comes from missing my mom and nursing school not going the way I thought/want it to go. The comfort comes from possibly being happy and comfortable with myself. I know I have imperfections, but they don't seem to phase me as much as they did before. The laziness comes from me being me.
So now I've decided and realized that the depression over my mom isn't going to go away that easy or maybe ever and that's something I will have to pray about and deal with as each day comes. The depression over nursing school is almost gone as I know God has a plan for me that's much better than any plan I could have for myself. With that understanding, I'm trying my best to be patient in all things that are heavy on my heart. I'm happy that I'm comfortable with myself, but I need to get active and eat correctly. I've gone back to eating more vegetables and less potato salad and rice. I must say that Sabbath lunch can sometimes be a real battle. I'm going to go back to my walking dvd and pilates dvd and I have to purchase a yoga dvd (I wasn't able to get the set of 3 I saw at Target yesterday because the display price was $10 less than what the register said).
So that's what's been going on with me for a while now and now I'm ready to get back into action and live a healthy lifestyle.

3 comments:

djw said...

Jill, Great to hear from you! It's important for us to take time to sort out stuff, so I'm glad you've been taking the time to do so (even if it was by default=).

I find that whenever life seems to be going awry and I bring the discipline back to eating and exercise, it generates energy and excitement that spills over into the rest of my life. It's such a wicked cycle-- cause it always takes energy (that i never seem to have) to start!!!

Anyway, proud of you for the introspections (which isn't always easy) and for rejoining the battle for healthy living (which isn't easy either)!

And if it's any consolation.... I haven't been on here in a while either!

Jill said...

Thanks!

Ginger said...

Thanks for touching base and sharing where you're at. I think that's what makes this site special.

We're all rooting for you.